Today my horoscope read, "Pace yourself, Capricorn. It's about time you got some balance in the day-to-day routine. The truth is, no matter what age you are, you aren't getting any younger. So living in the here and now is all you have. That doesn't mean you don't plan for the future. But a balance of both is what successful living is all about".
Staying in the here and now is really tough. We all know that. Knowing that darker days are coming means I must practice this with all my available strength. It will make the passage easier. It is the "probable, almost certain outcome" that has me terrified and deeply saddened.
One day I will speak of chronic illness and its debilitating effects. I'm going to need help to get through this.